Bought more clothes!

You know, the only way to really control my shopping habits is to shop by NEED and WANTS. Judging by both, I’ll map out a rather large shopping list and then start doing some research.

Right now, I’m shopping for Summer-Autumn-maybe-some-Winter.

I already know for a fact that my Autumn and Winter wardrobe has been severely lacking the past couple of years. I have, who knows 3 long-sleeved shirts? I’ve been mostly relying on hoodies and cardigans to get me by. But, I can’t help but feel hoodies have become like my hobo-back-up. While my cardigans are being worn to death. So, I just bought some shirts off the EGL_Comm_Sales:

Both are rarely cute. Not going for anything too crazy during Winter - I have been known to give up on looks sometimes in favour of simply just dressing for warmth.

Got new booties!

So, I finally caught the UPS guy after buying these at the Spring store at the Eaton Center last Friday. :) New shoes! I have so many shoes - but not all of them are practical or waterproof. Spring was having these for $24 ($26.95 after taxes) and they didn’t have any in stock. So, I had them shipped to my apartment. They are perfect for many genres: Steampunk, Dolly-kei, or Mori Girl. LOVE IT!

I also just ordered from ELF. Many blushes. Can’t wait to get it. It cost me $30 for like 7 products when it would normally cost me $30 bucks for one product at Sephora. In a few hours, I’ll be doing more shopping. Within reason, of course.

Love, Life, Lust.

Aya and I with out Lady Gaga Headbows from Pmall!

I have a lot of missed posts to make.

But, my accumulative posts would sadly be about my spending habits, shopping, and inspirations. Mostly, my shopping. However, I promise to start updating all my blogs (maybe even LJ) more often. I have to start planning some sort of scheduling and posting inspiring posts. Must drill into myself more self-discipline.

Yesterday, my significant other and I went to see the of Get Him To The Greek. It was surprisingly one of the better comedies I have seen in a while and he agreed. It was vulgar, random, self-deprecating, and good to honest hilarious. I was very surprised that the general opinion of netizens didn’t differ from my own (via my iPhone Movies App that is paired with Rotten Tomato Reviews). We then stopped by Aya’s workplace and picked her up so we could go eat Wanda’s Waffles (they had sadly raised their prices by almost $1) - which my significant other was quite into and then dropped by a McDonald’s that Aya’s friend is the manager of - discounts for the win. Business and personal life was discussed. It somehow felt as if when we both took two steps forward somehow something in our personal lives would set us back a little.

Earlier in the week we had both visited Pmall to officially close our Gagoo Locker Box:

Goodbye, useless locker box at Pmall which never sold much because you had shitty sales people. Lesson learned, we will never ever do consignments with Chinese fobs again. I’m sorry, but you guys don’t take the initiative to know us, our product, or learn how to make sales. It’s pathetic. Worst business mistake we have made since we started.

Somehow, Aya and I wanted the huge sequin headbows we both saw on the Liz Lisa site. As you may perceive - one of my bestfriend’s, Aya, has gone GAL or GYARU. Most of her recent purchases were through a shopping service in Japan for Liz Lisa stuff. She has the bags, the OPs, the skirts. Liz Lisa and Vivi have been mostly her constant inspirations and she is basing her brand on this sort of thing - not surprising seeing that she is a part time OTT Sweet Lolita.

The bows were being priced at an unbelievable $60 dollars each. Aya had been there before and we were both indecisive even when offered the for $40 each. We then mentioned that the Liz Lisa site had them for $20-$25 and as we were about to leave the sales lady offered us $20 each which is what we considered to be their equivalent worth. We paid, and were happy:

Then, she treated me to Korean and Sushi dinner at one of the restaurants at Pmall. We de-stressed about Anime North and our personal lives. God, it’s been a whirlwind of stress, stress, stress for both of us. But we ate well - her food though smelt like rotten preserved cabbage:

We then went more window shopping and fount this cute top which reminded us of Emily Temple Cute. I didn’t buy it because it looked much too easy to make.

And, yesterday I sent in my skirt order for the Korean Lolita brand Mew&Lief.

I am buying a skirt in this colorway and print:

I didn’t buy the JSK because it was much too big for me and I had seen the SKIRT IN REAL LIFE! A fellow Lolita visited our Marionette Anime North 2010 Crafters Corner table and I just had to snap a picture of her with Aya’s iPhone. OMG. And I TOUCHED IT. IT WAS A MUST HAVE. AND, my friend - Emily went Sweet Lolita for AN 2010. She’s normally Gothic - but she looks so awesome in Sweet!

Some god ordained a screw-up at the factory Mew&Lief printed at and they had to switch printers and open orders to meet the larger quantities of printed fabric.

This is a skirt I would KEEP KEEP KEEP forever and pass down to my…progeny?

Also, here are some skirts I had made for Anime North 2010. Not my entire stock - I didn’t have the time to take pictures of everything. But, the Candy skirt sold but my ‘Granny’ stuff as my little sister calls it, didn’t. Note to self: Gothic, Sweet, and Sweet-Classic sells at AN.

But, I didn’t want that skirt to sell. I love the old feel of the print and vintage feel it gives me. Of Dolly-kei. I feel like I will be working with Mori Girl and Dolly Kei more then ever. Been so inspired.

Here, I leave you with pictures of my most recent purchases and what I have to work with. Boater hats that were bartered down from $13 each to $20 for two. Thanks, to Aya again. A really adorable fabric I bought 1.5 yards of.

VM georgette chiffon that Aya found at an Italian fabric store on Queen West we have to make something out of.

Heart to Heart

I have taken to wearing my Geo circle lenses at least 2-3 times a week. In the pictures above, I am wearing my Geo Nudy's in brown. I love how it makes my eyes looks so different from normal. I blab about it so much that my significant other who works in customer service knows which Asian girl customer is wearing them now. He even asked one girl today and she was damn surprised. Haha.

Lately, I have been having issues with my self-esteem.

There are just so many things going on that are just a little too much to handle right now. I think I may be sick. I am not sure what type of sickness it is and I by gods, hope it's nothing terminal or something that will render me somewhat useless physically. I experience pain from it everyday - and the first time trying to book an appointment at multiple doctors was intensely frustrating. I ended up tearing up a little because the next available slots for me were 2-3 weeks. How the hell am I supposed to suffer for 2-3 weeks without any treatment?

I am scared. I am really scared. I don't know what to do and despite being rather strong in certain ways I am not a big pushover. More passive-agressive if anything. But, sometimes when I feel so weak, I think to myself that there is no lower I can go and I must fight my way out of the pit I dug. So, I called again and pushed for an emergency appointm

ent. I have an appointment due next week with one doctor and a nurse (from my family doctor's practice).

I am not quite sure what it is sometimes. It's almost as if when my life is at it's most hectic point that I just have a habit of bringing more trouble into my life to distract myself from the reality. I know, I get a lot more snappy and I start bashing the significant other and pushing him away even though I know I shouldn't. If anything, I just want to be left alone to mope.

Lately, I just want to shop. Shopping, is such an adventure lately. I paid for half my serger (my significant other paid for the other half as it is my Birthday Present). I finally bought a flat-iron. Went on a mini shopping spree at Sephora getting Benefit Erase Paste and Korres Quince Lip Butter + a free sample of Anastasia Mascara. I bought a pair of sexy boots from Payless.

Ridiculous, how much I spend when stressed!

It almost seems like beauty comes in a prettily packaged box...or many boxes:

But lately, the focus has been on appearance. Usually, I am not very high maintenance. However, recently I've been feeling this slight pressure to look a certain way now that I have been exposed to the world in which a certain perfection presides hand in hand with materialism. It almost seems as if I was meant to catch on. Eventually. I don't know how wholesome it will make me feel once I attain this beauty.

I've always told my bestfriend that to feel beautiful you must truly believe it for it to happen. Somehow, I've lost touch with that. To be honest, sometimes its all in your head. You can fiddle a lot with the outside but beauty really comes from within. And at this moment, my insides are ugly ugly ugly. They are like a rotting pile of tangles and knots.

Yet, despite this all. I still realize that while my spending could be cut a little more and I will always be on the pursuit for something to better myself. I will be fine. I have a lot of things many take for granted or don't even have. I should be happy. Thankful. Selfless.

Like our dog, Cookie: